Looking back at all my old blog posts and seeing myself lose and find and lose and find and lose and find myself has been (is) so.... mesmerizing. I love seeing the deepest and darkest points of my life on here. All those little moments where I'm like:- that's not me- it's so different now- … Continue reading I’m so grateful.
Don’t want to be “tough”
"You're so strong"I've heard it "You're so strong"I've learned it I've earned itI've served itI've nerved it Can't do harm by calling me "strong"Wrong. I've curbed itI've swerved itDon't want to hear anymore about how "I deserve it" Take your title and keep it far from meI don't want to be "strong"I want to return … Continue reading Don’t want to be “tough”
The old you
I miss him terribly The old himthe old himthe old him But he's gone now isn't he? the old youthe old youthe old you The one who used to be the bright part of my dayhe took my heart with him and now my feelings can't be kept at bayHe disappearedLeft me here with all … Continue reading The old you
From My Fears… To eyes that read
I fear that I’m never going to find someone that is capable of loving me the way that I can loveThat maybe how I feel is not considered love?I fear that I’ll be left feeling like I gave too much and didn’t receive enough?Like I’ll be left depleted because I don’t know how to loveI … Continue reading From My Fears… To eyes that read
From Body to Soul
We’re tiredWe’re tiredMy dear we’re tiredTiredTiredMy dear retireThere’s the doorPlease no moreWhat are you waiting for?No moreNo moreWhat do I have to do?To show you it’s trueWhat do I have to do?To tell you we’re sore“We’re through”“We’re through”Is it that hard to say?You payYou payFor the suffering, the painWe sayWe payYou say its “okay”You let … Continue reading From Body to Soul
From Mind to Heart
You shouldn’t have to runYou shouldn’t have to chaseLove should be a “safe space”A break from stressful daysDon’t tell me that you’re “happy”Cause I don’t see it in youDon’t tell me that it’s “just me”Cause you’re not being truthfulYou’re the one that told meWhat love should really beThat you wanted that “warming”But now you burn … Continue reading From Mind to Heart
From Conscience to Self (Don’t you deserve better?)
Don’t you deserve someone who stays to wipe your tears after they’ve caused them?After….Rather than run away blinded by anger…Don’t you deserve someone that just knows to call you when you’re upset?Rather than you having to explicitly tell them, wait, or call them…Don’t you deserve someone that makes you feel special?That values you over a … Continue reading From Conscience to Self (Don’t you deserve better?)
From Me to Me, and you… Poems (A series) Intro
Welcome. Welcome to another heart-wrenching catharsis by your neighborhood motherless child. First, an introduction... Oh relationships and all that they bring... The joy, shock, grief... and the grief. I'd say I'm a pretty smart girl when it comes to most things.... But the heart is dumb. At least mine is.... I don't know about yours.. … Continue reading From Me to Me, and you… Poems (A series) Intro
Potential
Unfiltered thoughts go! For a while now… since this thing started… you & I, me & you… you know what I mean…. I’ve been feeling these “feelings.” And well I haven’t really had the time to really sit down and figure out what those feelings really were… what they were composed of… It’s like they’ve … Continue reading Potential
A slither of Transcendence
Hello Motherless Children!!!! I am absolutely terrible in upkeeping my blog. It's been so long since I've written anything and on top of that my last post was a little sad... Not a good look, not a good look. I have been busy though, a good kind of busy. It's hard to believe, but in … Continue reading A slither of Transcendence
A Cup of Tea with a Motherless Child 