Hello Safe space,
Oh how much I needed you today
See I’m not quite feeling myself…
I’m not okay
You know… doing “the right thing” is not easy
Sometimes I don’t know what I’m doing and sometimes I know exactly what I’m doing and still get tangled up in the mess and let myself be carried away
All the signs are there…
The signs that say “Danger!” “Be Careful!” “What are you doing?” “This isn’t you!” “You know better” “This is not going to end well” “Stop right now”
Sometimes I feel like I turn into a different person and when she’s gone, she’s robbed me of my sanity
She lets things get farther than they should
She lives life on the edge
She fights against my better conscience
And sometimes she wins
She adds excitement in my life and sometimes I like her
But when she leaves me vulnerable, I can’t stand her
Like I said, doing the right thing is not always easy
Sometimes I just want to be alone, Sometimes I just want to be held
I push people away… I push people away…
I am not okay, I am not okay….
Today…
A Cup of Tea with a Motherless Child 