I just lost a friend… for no good reason

Hello everybody... Where do I even begin? I guess I'll start by telling you what is going on inside of me.... I feel like I have a 2 pound weight sitting on my chest. I am thoroughly upset yet I cannot seem to cry... Don't get me wrong... I kind of want to cry... I … Continue reading I just lost a friend… for no good reason →

The Darkness Within…

My brothers sometimes criticize me because I have really dark jokes.. Jokes that play on the border of life and death. A friend once told me... "She likes her humor as dark as her beer." He was referring to me of course. I see the world how cold it is and I think to myself … Continue reading The Darkness Within… →

Interpersonal relationships, involvements, and all of the other I’s Part I

I say "I" because it often starts with "I's." For instance, "I did this..."," I feel this...", and the like... So onto interpersonal relationships and such. Being a motherless child there's always a big void needing to be filled. You can't help but wonder if things would be "different" with her around. It's just like … Continue reading Interpersonal relationships, involvements, and all of the other I’s Part I →

I let myself get carried away…

Hello Safe space, Oh how much I needed you today See I'm not quite feeling myself... I'm not okay You know... doing "the right thing" is not easy Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing and sometimes I know exactly what I'm doing and still get tangled up in the mess and let myself be … Continue reading I let myself get carried away… →

The Race back home

There's something I've been wanting to talk about that was one of the reasons I left Texas. See, I grew up in Florida, where a lot of people come from different places... To put it in short, we're pretty diverse. The first time I ever left home I went to NY (again.. diverse.) Now plant … Continue reading The Race back home →

My Dear Motherless Children, just checking in #2

Greetings! Today is a beautiful day to write a blog post. I haven't published anything in quite a while because as I might of mentioned, one of the topics I'd like to incorporate into this blog is the themes surrounding loss. Moreover, my take on an inside look within the mind of a motherless child, … Continue reading My Dear Motherless Children, just checking in #2 →

Don’t make a fist

All she wants is to be loved All she wants is a heart-felt hug All she wants is to be wanted Not paranoid or memory-haunted All she wants is a little time By taking some, is it a crime? To show her that you really care Heal a heart or watch it tear … Continue reading Don’t make a fist →

Poem: Frantic

Hopeless fanatic. Misguided romantic. Frantic. My best childish man trick, Antic. Ticky, tock. ..the clock shifts, knock, knock. Knocked back into reality, A concussion so sporadically puts me in the situation that bared my insanity. In sitting so desirably sounds so sweetly seemingly swallowed me. Me thinking these inspired Truly falsely was I wired I … Continue reading Poem: Frantic →

Okay Update – Just Checking in..

Set time for yourself. Learn about yourself. Keep track of your findings. Or at least that's what I'm trying to do. Let me explain further. Upon moving from my old apartment, I have to say I do feel a little more at peace. Don't get me wrong, I have a lot of work to put … Continue reading Okay Update – Just Checking in.. →

I’m allowed to be f*cking sad

"Cheer up!" No. "Don't be such a downer." Bite me. "You're bringing me down." F*ck you! "You can't just get like this every time any little thing happens." Go to hell. Seriously. What? I can't express the fact that I'm not exactly a ray of sunshine every single day? I don't need a seal of approval of WHEN … Continue reading I’m allowed to be f*cking sad →