I’m so grateful.

Looking back at all my old blog posts and seeing myself lose and find and lose and find and lose and find myself has been (is) so.... mesmerizing. I love seeing the deepest and darkest points of my life on here. All those little moments where I'm like:- that's not me- it's so different now- … Continue reading I’m so grateful. →

Don’t want to be “tough”

"You're so strong"I've heard it "You're so strong"I've learned it I've earned itI've served itI've nerved it Can't do harm by calling me "strong"Wrong. I've curbed itI've swerved itDon't want to hear anymore about how "I deserve it" Take your title and keep it far from meI don't want to be "strong"I want to return … Continue reading Don’t want to be “tough” →

A slither of Transcendence

Hello Motherless Children!!!! I am absolutely terrible in upkeeping my blog. It's been so long since I've written anything and on top of that my last post was a little sad... Not a good look, not a good look. I have been busy though, a good kind of busy. It's hard to believe, but in … Continue reading A slither of Transcendence →

I just lost a friend… for no good reason

Hello everybody... Where do I even begin? I guess I'll start by telling you what is going on inside of me.... I feel like I have a 2 pound weight sitting on my chest. I am thoroughly upset yet I cannot seem to cry... Don't get me wrong... I kind of want to cry... I … Continue reading I just lost a friend… for no good reason →

The Darkness Within…

My brothers sometimes criticize me because I have really dark jokes.. Jokes that play on the border of life and death. A friend once told me... "She likes her humor as dark as her beer." He was referring to me of course. I see the world how cold it is and I think to myself … Continue reading The Darkness Within… →

Interpersonal relationships, involvements, and all of the other I’s Part I

I say "I" because it often starts with "I's." For instance, "I did this..."," I feel this...", and the like... So onto interpersonal relationships and such. Being a motherless child there's always a big void needing to be filled. You can't help but wonder if things would be "different" with her around. It's just like … Continue reading Interpersonal relationships, involvements, and all of the other I’s Part I →

I let myself get carried away…

Hello Safe space, Oh how much I needed you today See I'm not quite feeling myself... I'm not okay You know... doing "the right thing" is not easy Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing and sometimes I know exactly what I'm doing and still get tangled up in the mess and let myself be … Continue reading I let myself get carried away… →

The Race back home

There's something I've been wanting to talk about that was one of the reasons I left Texas. See, I grew up in Florida, where a lot of people come from different places... To put it in short, we're pretty diverse. The first time I ever left home I went to NY (again.. diverse.) Now plant … Continue reading The Race back home →

My Dear Motherless Children, just checking in #2

Greetings! Today is a beautiful day to write a blog post. I haven't published anything in quite a while because as I might of mentioned, one of the topics I'd like to incorporate into this blog is the themes surrounding loss. Moreover, my take on an inside look within the mind of a motherless child, … Continue reading My Dear Motherless Children, just checking in #2 →

Don’t make a fist

All she wants is to be loved All she wants is a heart-felt hug All she wants is to be wanted Not paranoid or memory-haunted All she wants is a little time By taking some, is it a crime? To show her that you really care Heal a heart or watch it tear … Continue reading Don’t make a fist →